To my big brother

This year has been quite full of life changing situations and decisions. Hasnt it?
First it was your sudden decision to move to the US. You have been threatening us for a while, but still it took us all by surprise when you were really moving over there. Never before had our family been so far away from each other. I was so happy you were finally where you wanted to be. I talked to you. But still something stired inside me. I hadn't said goodbye to you. I didn't take you to the airport and said my goodbyes and wished you good luck.The last time I saw you I never imagined it would be so important. I felt bad. That's why I wanted to go visit you in SF so much. I wanted to see you again. You where so decided of staying there that I was afraid of not seing you for so long unless I visited you that I had to go. Thanks to mom and dad I was able to go. I saw how you lived, I experienced your happyness of being there, right where you where ment to me. I was able to see you surounded by people like you. You finally fitted somewhere, and you were more happy there than I have seen you in such a long while. Of course, sometimes I could also see you where lonely. Away from your family, your friends and everything that had once been your life. It's sad to be away from home, I know.
When you left me on the airport that last day I cried so much during the flight. I felt that you where not coming back. I was happy for you, but still I cried.
On august we were all together again. It felt so good. Not just our family, but so many people from our past were there, I couldnt help it but year those days when everything was so much simpler.
And then, your big news. I have to admit that I cried a little when mom told me. She was so sad, so worried for her little boy. Still, she didn't knew what I what I knew. She didnt saw your there, she didnt live your happiness, your fitting in. I dont think she really understand what it really means. It was like freeing a fish from its bowl into the ocean just to take it back in. It was cruel, and it hurt me. But I was sure you would get over it and stand up again.
Now, another great adventure is awaiting. One that will take you even farther than you've ever been.It is one journey that you have chosen to travel alone. More that really finding a place, I believe its a journey to finding yourself, what you really want, and who you really are and what you want to become.

I wish you nothing but the best, for you deserve nothing less than that.
Please be carefull, you'll be so far away from your loved ones.
Keep in touch.
Remember that no matter how far away you are, how lonely you feel or how badly things are going, your family will always be here for you. You will always have a home to come back to, filled with opened arms to embrace you, whether its for visiting of to stay.
May all your expectations be satisfied.
I love you,